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"It's so easy to fall in love but hard to find someone who will catch you."~Anon


Chapter 14

I awoke in a trance; still waiting. I have a feeling though my time is up. Thankfully my cut at the back of my head seems to have healed. I have a feeling today things will finally make sense. The death eaters will be unmasked and light will be shed on this desperate situation of ours.

*click* *scrap* *click* *turn*

‘Oh my Gawd they are here now coming here at last. They are only on the other side of the door they are so close. Perhaps wishing for such a thing was foolish of me; I don’t like the ideas forming in my head what they could want. I can hear them muttering outside the iron cast door. The event I have been both dreading and wishing for is finally here...

*Bang* *creak* *slam*

The door is open; they are here. There are four of them at first. I find it hard to tell in the light as the bright light flooding into my dark and dingy room blinds me for a second or two. They are all cloaked that is clear to see; all their hoods are up disguising their faces. It is so frustrating. The mystery deepens as more approach the doorway. What I see next stuns me completely. ‘Remus? What have they done to you?’ My speech is impaired I cannot speak to him; I am unable to utter any form of comfort to the man I love. The one thing though; that is beginning to boil inside of me right now is rage. Remus is completely limp as they carry him forward. He is covered with deeper scars that I have ever seen on him before. His body is tarnished and torn beyond recognition. He seems to be stained of blood and goodness knows what else. He is frailer than me and he can barely raise his head or move his limbs; the sight of him crushes me inside. He is a destroyed man. The death eaters carrying him; drag him through and dump him on the ground just beside me. I just about catch him as his limbs shake beneath him and he nearly collapses. As I see him hack out a lung in his bedraggled state it is then I suddenly snap.

“What have you done? Whatever you needed you didn’t have to treat him like that! He doesn’t deserve it!”

“Shut up silly woman!”

With that the big guy of the group that I still remember as the smell of him reaches my nose; whacks me hard on my head where I was hurt last time. It throbs immediately and I have to compose myself against the wall. That was stupid; I am so weak; I know my strength is ebbing away. I turn to Remus he has managed to raise his head and he is looking at me for the first time in what only feels like forever for us. It is but a moment; looking into each other’s eyes but it is enough. At least if this is the end; I got to see Remus one more time. It does not last we are interrupted by the man once again. He snarls and addresses us all.

“It is your turn to listen to me; too long I have been waiting for this and now at last I have been granted permission to continue as I see fit. You see as powerful as I am; I still need help from these death-eaters...”

A series of coughs are heard at that moment and I get the instant impression that the other death-eaters in the room do not like being talked about in that way. The big man merely snarls again and proceeds.

“So now I find my favourite game is about to begin; as this vermin here dare not speak; very foolish indeed. No matter; I find myself at familiar tracks....Unfamiliar though to those I find in my company here but alas it is I assured them the surest way to get the answers we need.”

“Get to the point!”

The big man turns and looks in the direction of the other death eater who spoke out of turn.

“Shut up you!”

“You can’t tell me to do anything; you are not my leader my ligeance is with the dark lord and the dark lord alone.”

The big man snarls again and walks over to the man that interrupted. Lifting him up high instantly he throws him out of the room. The man gets up and whimpers slightly. He manages to shout back into the room.

“Wait till the dark lord hears about this!”

“Oh I’m really scared! Why don’t you just scutter off you idiot, that is what you are good for...A mere insignificant pet!”

The little man scarpers out of the room.

“Does anyone else have a problem with what I am doing here?”

Everyone else shakes their heads and the man continues.

“As I was saying; I think it was time I revealed myself to you Nymphadora and Remus. It is time to show you who your captor really is.”

I waited with bated breath; I was transfixed on the man. After two weeks I would finally get answers. I am amazed that this man has not revealed himself to Remus until now. His dirty fingers rise up and he reaches for the edges of his hood that disguise his face. He reaches the edges of the hood and gently pulls the hood away from his face. The light from the corridor lights up his features as he pulls off his hood. Everything seems to be in slow motion and I and Remus are glued to this man; until all is revealed....I may not have been to Hell but I know I stand on the verge of such a place when I look upon this man’s face at last. I cannot believe it; it is him. After all this time....It cannot be? I directly reach for Remus’ hand and I grip it tight, his hands are like jelly now and I understand why. No! Oh Remus....I’m so sorry this is all my fault.....

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OMG the suspense will kill me! Who is the masked man? I hope Tonks and Remus escape soon. I long for them to be happy together. Write again soon, GT.

I finally fixed my text-to-speech. I'd changed my javascript settings in my browser and that had messed up the speech software.

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if I have to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU. ~dani b


Chapter 15


Remus’s eyes are wide awake now; his hands are trembling as he looks upon his torturer at last. All this time Remus was dreading it was him and now it is him; he can’t bear it. The only thing that keeps him going in this moment is Tonks’ hand; in his own. Tonks’ grip is the only thing keeping a pulse in his body because at that moment it feels as though his heart is struggling to carry on. His eyes close briefly; as he thinks about all that has befallen him thus far and how it all came to this.

Remus had a gruelling time of it these past two weeks. As well as being given the Cruciatus Curse throughout. The death eaters also reverted to normal muggle torture techniques. They actually physically tortured him. The man that stood before Remus now was the main perpetrator; he used all sorts of methods to torture Remus. Despite it all Remus had not given in to the death-eaters’ demands he had hung in without saying a word; not one. Remus had been strong to the end but now things were making a turn for the worst; as he fully took in the main death eater’s face at last. Here at last was the very man who had inflicted so much pain...For a name.

They wanted the secret keeper; for the Order’s headquarters. Remus refused to tell them every time; he would not betray the man he respected more than life itself. He could not give the name they wanted; the very man that despite everything allowed Remus to attend Hogwarts and later even teach there (even with Remus’ problems). Remus refused right out to give Dumbledore’s name. So even after every whip; every stab; every curse Remus kept Dumbledore’s secret intact.

It was truly amazing how long Remus had lasted. Now though; Remus was reaching the last strains of his own strength and things were about to get worse; he just knew it. He had a feeling it wasn’t just about a name; he was sure Voldemort could work out who the secret keeper was if he really wanted to. No that was only an excuse for the man before his eyes now; he could see it in his eyes and his glaring grin. It seemed more to it; a more deep seeded plan. This was something completely evil and frivolous and it now all made complete sense. Remus was struck dumb; there was no way out. He knew what was due now.

The horrible man before them laughed and laughed as he saw Remus paralyzed in fear. His laugh echoed around the walls, it was an evil sinister laugh and it crushed Remus from within. This was the worst torture Remus had to endure. Tonks could feel it too but her grip on Remus’s hand was constant. It was the only safe haven Remus could feel right now. His eyes were transfixed completely on the evil being. Soon a fear began to emerge in Remus’ heart as the man’s hallowing laugh continued to mock and shun the couple. It was then Remus knew what he had planned for them both. It might be the one thing that would make Remus give away Dumbledore. It would be only thing that would break such a bond. It was a choice he knew would be the most difficult he’d have to ever make. Remus’ eyes once determined despite everything that had befallen him looked shaken beyond belief. Remus was actually scared for the first time ever; scared that he might lose the one woman he knew he loved absolutely.

It was the one being that would and could do it to him; threaten his love. The man was the very one that had haunted him for what seemed like an eternity; that if it wasn’t for the full moon would be his biggest fear. The man before them now; who had tortured Remus for two weeks was the very man he thought he’d never see again. He was more than a man; he was a monster and Remus knew then he had the power to overturn everything Remus had accomplished with Tonks. Remus couldn’t bear to think about what this villain had planned. Remus gripped Tonk's hand as she had done before; turning to her for a brief second he manages to utter three words of importance.

"I love you."

This brute was going to be their undoing, he just knew it; for the horror before them was none other than, Fenir Greyback.

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Did I really not post in here? Oh dear, I hope you haven't given up writing. I just knew it would be Fenrir Greyback doing his worst. I so want Tonks and Remus to escape and be happy together. Greyback deserves a huge whack with the wormtail-beater.

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that is reallly good i got confused sometimes byt when i reread the chapter it made sence i cant wait for you to write more!!!

Lol I will come back to this; so sorry to keep you all waiting...If you are interested in reading the rest of it. I stopped writing it for a while to focus on writing a novel in a month in November (which incidently I didn't finish). Then I was busy with a radio course but I have great intentions in finishing this...I promise. I will get back on track with this story....I hope you don't mind.

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Ok sorry to double post but at last I've written another chapter (long over due) I hope you like it everyone that has stuck by me and this story.

Warning: some violence

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime. ~ Bette Davis

Chapter 15

There he stood Fenir Greyback; the awful one who had punished Remus for so long; for what I still don’t understand. For information that is as much as I can fathom; but to what ends that is yet to be decided. Something tells me as Fenir begins to pace the room; with his face fully bared and his snarling grin more startling in the flesh. His eyes stay fixed on Remus and I and I see his snarl widening and his eyes getting ever hungry. When his eyes have reached starvation he stops and laughs.

“He knows; I know he knows....You my dear look confused but scared none the less; I’m glad I still produce such an impression on people...Even before I have even transformed...”

“No please I beg you I’ll tell you who the secret-keeper is; I’ll tell you...But please don’t...” Remus begged forward.

“Remus Don’t! Whatever he has installed for us; I can take it...Don’t do it.”

I place my hand on Remus’ shoulders to bring him back; he is still weak and I fear any more punishment and he may not last. I do not want him provoking him any longer. I also don’t want him giving away Dumbledore; we couldn’t betray the man now; not after all we had already endured. It can’t be so bad can it; what did Remus see in Fenir’s eyes that I could not.

When our little action had subsided and Remus and I could only look at each other; both lost in what we would do next. Fenir’s laugh broke our silence I look at him as he cackles.

“Ah this will make my plan all that more sweeter; You’ll stand by your man no matter what; even if he is a beast to others and not even fit enough to teach stupid brats...Such a shame he thinks he is still human. When he could be so much more than that and run me and my fellow Were-wolves as he should do. What is so brave about being mocked by human scum when he’d be happier with us?”

“Shut up; he’s brave because he does live with us; he’s brave because he doesn’t let their horrible slander effect him; he’s brave because despite your punishment he still lives; he’s brave....he’s brave because despite it all...He loves me; a mere human. You see he’s better then all of you; who shun in the dark and think your better than others. It’s not what or who you are it’s how you live. You are monsters...Not because you are were-wolves but because you choose to be monsters rather than live to overcome being werewolves.”

I could see I had gone too far. His smile was no more; his snarl was nasty then ever as he ran forward and taking out a small dagger he then sliced my arm.

“You stupid witch brat; he isn’t better than us...He is scum. Wear that scar well and remember who did it to you. You are foolish; this long absence from him has made you idiotic.”

I staggered back and held fast onto my arm. Remus covers me now. He looks on at Fenir with a face no longer weakened but bold and ready. I can feel his energy as he holds me close.

“Please leave her alone; she has done nothing wrong!”

Fenir growls in retaliation.

“Your union makes me sick to the stomach Remus; I created you for a purpose not to flout your attentions on some ordinary brat!”

“No! You created me; for your own revenge against my father...You didn’t care if I would survive or not. You didn’t want me in your pack; you just wanted to punish my father....what does it matter....who I...who I love! I love Tonks and I always will!”

That was the first time I havr really heard Remus state his love to me; to anyone before. He feels stronger under my embrace. To stand up against the one person who created him and created his sad life; to say he loves me; completely blows me over. Fenir though scuffs and slaps Remus hard against his face.

“How dare you! You are actually in love with her...You make me sick....That is it; you mock me and my kind too far. It is time to tell you what I have installed for you...Do you know what it is tonight; it is your moment to shine at last. To see who you really are...”

Remus breaks away from me and I instantly feel the cold air; the atmosphere in the room has deepens and as I look at everyone in the room and more strikingly Fenir in the centre. I know things are about to get worse.

“Please Fenir; I’ll do anything...Ok the secret-keeper is Dumbledore...Ok you know who it is now; can we go?...”

“No Remus!” I shouted.

Fenir only laughs out loud.

“Do you really think I was ever interested in such information....The dark lord isn’t stupid; he knew it could only be Dumbledore. We’re here on our own decision. The one death-eater that could have stopped us has gone thank goodness; you know him well Remus. Perhaps it was the shock of seeing his old scum of a friend in turmoil that made him leave...Or perhaps his ligeance to the dark lord is stronger yet and he’d rather be in his company than mine and yours. You know him as Wormtail. I see by your expression his presence wouldn’t have helped much. You are now completely and utterly under our power now; as we are all the same...Reveal your selves everyone here cloaked....Look around Remus you may recognize some of your brothers and sisters; and those who you tried to persuade...Unfortunately their ligeance will always be mine; as if they would fight for any other cause.”

All our cloaked captors take off their hoods and soon the room is full of men; that are loyal to Fenir; you can tell by their eyes. They all have similar scars too; to that of Remus. They all have the similar traits that only a werewolf would possess. I have a feeling we may never get out of here. Remus only sinks lower and I have a feeling he knew what is to happen next.

“Now for your punishment; for throwing your lot with them; I am not going to kill you Remus; oh no you deserve a punishment worse than death. Since you cannot stand being such a powerful being as we; and you hate hurting humans. How would you feel I wonder if you killed your one true love? It is unfortunate; that you didn’t love your own kind.... But perhaps now you shall learn.”

Remus eyes began to melt as water filled his eyes; I hadn’t seen him cry like that since that night when we had come back after Sirius had died. I still didn’t know what was going to happen all I knew was I was scared rigid.

“You know Remus; as we all know here....What happens tonight. It is the Full moon and you all know too well what that means. I know you haven’t had any wolfs bane and so I know you will become your own vicious-self. Then...Then my dear friend you will see where your loyalties really lie....You will kill your true love....Then...Then

Fenir begins to laugh and the laugh echoes all around the room and Remus can only stare on completely locked in a trance of fear against Fenir and the rest of the werewolves.

“Then hopefully you’ll never slip up again and your loyalties will remain with us.”

“I’ll never join you...Never; never!!!!”

“Such a pity Remus...If after all this you fail to join us we’ll have no choice but to kill you...Such a pity; this is all for your benefit after all....Punishment for loving such scum as this.”

“I’d rather die than join up with you....Plus without; Tonks my life wouldn’t be worth living at all.”

I had remained silent throughout; the full moon was tonight; I couldn’t believe it. I knew I would never survive. Locked in a room with a werewolf there would be no escape I would be a gonna. I am so scared; I hold Remus closer; knowing it may be the last thing I will remember. Remus grips my hand.

“What about all of you where will you be when you all transform!”

“Oh we’ll be far away from here; there is a wizard party in the countryside; I and my kindred are very much obliged to go to. We haven’t been invited as such but when one of those wizards; Fergus Flyte insulted me....well there’s no alternative really. We will stand around ready and when the full moon hits us; we’ll crash the party!”

I couldn’t believe he would do such a thing.

“Now don’t you worry my friends there is a perfect view point here for the moon. The skylight is perfect for your convenience....The door is double bolted and locked from the other side....We’re going now....Sweet dreams and good riddance WITCH BRAT!”

Remus was about to rush forward and hurt Fenir but I stopped him before he was injured even more. I couldn’t bear are final time together ruined any further. I whispered in his ear “Don’t” and he listened. As Fenir let out another startling laugh he marches forward to me again and Remus desperately protects me. Fenir Merely pushes him off. Grabbing my arm that he had cut before; he squeezes it hard; so some blood splatters across the floor.

“Now with the scent of human blood on the floor; Remus will go wild when he changes....You’ll have no chance to hide....Then again just to make sure I’ll...”

Fenir grabs my arm again and takes out his dagger that has a twisted blade; he twists the blade in the cut so it won’t heal for a while; more blood seeps out and I desperately grasp it.

“What did you do that for?”

“Just to make sure he’ll smell you; where ever you are!”

Remus huddles me closer as Fenir stands up and laughs once more...Before he leaves though he says one last remark.

“Oh and you have at least 2 hours by the way before the full moon strikes this room...Goodbye!”

With that he slams the door and all we can do is embrace; I break down then. I have held back until that moment. All is lost; we will never get out now...

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Ok here's another post for my story; I hope you like

Warning: R rated moment towards the end. It's not graphic but I've put it in spoilers just in case there is any younger readers. I think its fine though.


Here are fruits, flowers, leaves, and branches, And here is my heart which beats only for you. ~ Paul Verlaine


Chapter 16

Remus is completely stunned in the moment. It is getting darker and although there is no clock in the room. Remus can hear a ticking sound; telling him they’ve only got a short amount of time left. All he can think about now is how much has happened and all that he wanted with Tonks. He can’t believe it will all be undone in no time at all. He hugs Tonks hard as she cries more deeply into his shoulder. He strokes her hair and he notices how it fades as the light in the room disappears. It is clear that Tonks feels the same kind of despair as him-self; as her hair changes from purple to fiery red to muddy brown.

As Tonks’ tears deepen and they become more desperate. Remus hugs her tightly.

“I can’t bear it; to hear you cry....I’m so sorry. This is all my fault; if you had only loved someone better than me....Someone normal”

Tonks stops her cuddling and tears her head away from Remus’ shoulder to look into his eyes. She pulls back just a little bit.

“Don’t you dare say that; to me now? I regret nothing; you are the best man I could ever be with.”

Remus’ eyes shimmer in the fading light; the tears build but refuse to fall. He cups Tonks’ face and looks deeply into her eyes; memories of their first proper meeting in the Kitchen at Sirius’ old house come flooding back to him in an instant. His heart begins to beat fast as it first did when they kissed for the first time and for the fun they had on their first date around London town. He remembers now; the thrill and excitement of being held from behind on Sirius’ old flying bike as they rode through the town. He also remembers her laugh and how with each chuckle it tugged even further at his heart strings. He knows he will always love this woman; and no matter how many times he thinks he is wrong for her; it only fuels how much he is actually meant for her. He cannot believe their time now is so short.

“I’m sorry Tonks; I just feel so helpless...and...I...can’t believe you love me still despite; despite what is to happen soon....I am such a monster...If only I could stop from transforming and....”

Tonks cuts in; she wouldn’t allow Remus to feel sorry for her any longer.

“Stop; please just stop...I won’t allow you to feel sorry for yourself or me any longer!”

Looking at Remus’ eyes and sorry complexion only made Tonks’ sadder.

“Remus I....”

It was then that Remus does something completely out of character he kisses her.

“You’re right; we shouldn’t think about all that has gone wrong....We should try to be happy with what time we have left; I know the moon is approaching...First off let me see your arm; it must be really throbbing by now.”

Tonks drew her arm out; the crimson red was staining her purple top; against the colour it looks like a strange blemish. Remus scrawls back Tonks’ top; the smell of the blood reaches his nostrils immediately and he can feel the fire in his stomach beginning to grow. He knows only too well what it would be like later when he looses control completely. He couldn’t bear to think about it. He knew the best way for Tonks’ was to cover the over powering smell of blood.

“We must cover that up as much as possible.”

Remus rips his already torn shirt; from the last days torture. Biting off the end and licking it. Remus smells the torn garment to make sure.

“Good it smells strongly of me; with a bit of luck that might put me off.”

With another piece of garment; Remus wipes the blood off the open wound and tightens it around the gash to keep the blood from seeping out. Remus then wraps the garment that smelled strongly of him and wrapps it around the first make-shift bandage.

“There I only hope that helps....I better wipe this up as much as possible.”

As a final statement he kisses Tonks’ bandage. Remus then reaches for a cup that has traces of water left in it from the last time Tonks’ was given food or drink. He pours the remaining water on the floor where the blood stain from Tonks’ cut is. He wipes it down strongly; roughly scrubbing the floor till there is nothing left of the blood on the floor.

“There...I hope that will help I’m sorry...”

Remus stops mid-sentence as Tonks kisses him; after watching how much Remus has done for her. It seems desperate now but at least Remus is trying. Tonks places a finger on Remus’ lips; to stop him from ruining the moment.

“No more apologies....Thanks for everything Remus; I love you....Isn’t that enough?”

Despite it all; Remus can’t help but smile.

“Yes it is...I love you Nymphadora.”

Tonks blushes at the use of her proper name; she likes the sound of it; like never before. Remus cups her face once more and kisses her strongly on her lips. They both fall slowly forward in a heap. Remus takes the lead. He isn’t sure where these urges are coming from; but he knows it is right. Tonks never felt so happy in all her life and although time is ebbing away; time seems to stand still in that moment.

As the kissing gets stronger; Tonks’ own courage comes forward and she feels herself in similar territory; when she wanted something more from Remus before. Remus is not backing down this time though; he wants Tonks. He feels almost animalistic in the minute; he fears slightly that perhaps his sudden bravery comes from the inner wolf building inside him. He uses it though; he will not let the moment go. Tonks is everything to him he has to have her now. Tonks allows her hands to run around his shoulders and down his back; feeling to the front. She undoes his buttons one by one; just as Remus’ kisses get deeper and lower.

When Remus’ tattered shirt is off; Tonks almost stops altogether when she sees all the scars he ever had; plus all the fresh new wounds he has required from all the torture. Her eyes begin to fill up with tears again.

“Don’t cry Tonks; this is who I am...I wear them; they do not wear me down.”

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Tonks smiles at Remus’ new found courage and begins to kiss him. Slowly her lips move down and she kisses each of his scars. Remus smiles and strokes her hair as she continues to kiss him. Remus gently pushes Tonks back and once again his actions become stronger as their union becomes more and more intense. Remus takes off her purple top and he strokes her body completely. She gasps out of love just a little bit. Tonks reaches for his belt and slowly takes it off. Remus gasps as he feels himself becoming ready. Tonks becomes fierier than before; her hair turns a sharp colour of red and she unzips Remus’ trousers. Remus follows suit taking off Tonks’ trousers; they slip off easily.

Despite the temperatures in the room; the couple keeps each other warm easily. Remus is lost in an instant. They both become one; as their motions are rhythmic. Remus is a slow lover; he doesn’t want to ruin anything with Tonks. Tonks gasps in delight as the thrusts become more intense. Remus is conscience of her feelings; and attitude. It is almost as though Remus is inside Tonks’ very head; being commanded to do whatever she wants. Their feelings lead each other on; their passions for each other get deeper and deeper and soon they have reached the pinnacle of their love. They both gasp out together; feeling completly fullfilled. After everything it seems the moment was a lot longer than it was. Remus lies next to Tonks and she cuddles into his naked stomach. He holds her tight and kisses her head; he watches in hopelessness; as he sees her fiery hair change back to the muddy brown it was before. Tonks is so warm and yet the situation seems to be slipping away from them. He peers up towards the sky light in the room; big enough for the main event.

Remus’ heart begins to beat fast; he can see the side of the sky light glowing in silver light. Fear now is clearly etched in Remus’ eyes. Tonks can clearly feel Remus’ angst and turns to look at him fully in the glimmering light.

“What’s wrong Remus?”

“I’m so....sorry....it’s only but a moment away...You’ve only got a few minutes before the full moon floods this room....please hide...please.”

Remus can feel his eyes filling again; it was so short a time; he wishes he could have longer with the one he loves. Why did he have to be cursed? Why couldn’t he be a normal being? His whole body is shaking with shame.

“Please Tonks get up now...”

Tonks obeys immediately she is for the first time really scared. She can see in Remus’ eyes that their time is nearly up. She quickly grabs her clothes and changes immediately. She makes sure the gash on her arm is fully covered. Remus kisses it rubbing his hairy beard across it; leaving his scent right across it. He then looks into Tonks’ eyes and kisses her strongly on her lips. Tonks tensely tugs on his hair and makes sure he looks at her as he begins to lower his head.

“No matter what happens; thank you...For everything; you are the best that ever happened to me and I love you!”

Tonks falls into Remus’ arms and they embrace tightly. Tonks cannot believe this is it; her tears freely fall; she can’t bear the fact she is losing the only man she ever loved... Remus tenses up; his face is constricting and pulsating.....Remus quickly whispers in her ear.

“I love you too....oh God...Dora....Run!”

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Ok so this has been a long time coming...Sorry about the wait to those who were actually interested in the story. I actually wrote these chapters on holiday and I've only just typed them up. I hope they do not dissapoint. I have nearly finished I am sure...As you read these I'm sure you'll get the meaning behind that. Anyway I hope you like....



Chapter 17

“...Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” Stephen King

All I can feel now is my heart thumping hard against my chest. It seems to beat so loudly against my rapidly rising chest. The more I think about it the faster it beats. Remus only just released me but it feels like forever I am utterly panic stricken. As fear builds inside me my worry becomes worse as the reality of it all deepens; how can I possibly hide from Remus. The situation is impossible. How can I simply go unnoticed behind some old barrel in the corner of a locked room?

Everything that Remus said seems pointless now; it is very clear to me now that Fenir knew there was no way I’d get out here alive. Even if Remus can’t smell me now it will only be a matter of time before he finds me in such an obvious place. There is no hope in thinking of a way out; as a were-wolf he’d kill his own best friend....I have no chance.

I can’t believe after everything we’ve discovered and finally have...May be lost. It is so hard not to think about what is to happen. I know the only way I am to survive is to stay calm but it is so hard when I know that right in front of me lies my demise. I am petrified. Listening to what is becoming of Remus is all I can do now.

I just have to look even though I know I shouldn’t...

It is awful; his skin is being stretched and pulled to its limits and his hair is growing longer than normal spreading like some kind of disease to surround his body completely. I had to snap back behind the barrel because I could see his new ears twitching in irritation to my whereabouts. So I wait here nervous like before only now it is worse because I know how near he is to full transformation. Can this really be the end...?

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Chapter 18

“Every act of creation is first an act of destruction.”- Pablo Picasso


“Awhooo”

A howl is heard within the confines of the room; at last the transformation near to complete.

Remus is no more but the beast he dreads emerging each month. Now the monster stands in the cramped room trapped. The moon is covered slightly by a floating cloud and the room is immediately transfigured into an ominous room. The glimmers of the remaining moon’s glare still manage to highlight some of Remus’ now menacing features. His teeth look extremely sharp against the silver light that pierces through the sky-light.

Remus’ eyes are no longer like sapphires but they glow with a green yellow; they are eyes for one purpose now. They are the eyes of a killer. Remus raises his new wolf head to the moon and it is as though he drinks up the moon light to give him energy. He is no mere wolf though he is a giant his head nearly touches the arched ceiling and his body seems crushed in such a limitless space.

His hair is a shaggy blanket that spreads around his body completely. His tail is like a snake it seems to lie very close to where Tonks is hiding. The transformation is nearing the end; as something dark builds inside of him. A rage is building within the beast’s body ensnaring his senses and making him a vicious killer. As the rage and new found senses reach the monster’s nostrils they flare. He knows he is not alone. Although he cannot yet trace the exact location he instantly knows he is not on his own in this strange cramped room. He licks his lips in anticipation. Smelling the areas again he is confused; the smell seems odd. He can tell it is human but it smells wolf-like too.

The were-wolf is angry; he cannot work out the smell and his rage spills out as he howls with despair that his first thought food could not be there. He turns on himself as there is nowhere else to release his aggression which constantly builds within his body. Blaming himself as any beast would put under pressure in a strange room with no way out and losing a meal. He blames himself for spreading the smell.

He bites down hard on his own arm. He yelps in reaction to the pain. He instantly tries to stop the bleeding by licking the fresh wound with his large tongue he laps up the blood. Rocking back and forth he looks like an animal possessed. His anger continues to build inside of him. He decides to try and find a way out seeing as there is nothing else left in the room for him to enjoy. He reaches the heavy wooden door and desperately tries to slam into the solid oak door. The door barely budges even from such a heavy beast as what Remus is now. Remus tries scratching against the door but it is hardly damaged and he loses a claw instead of doing any real damage on the door.

Remus begins to pace like a caged wild animal bored. Suddenly he stops; despite having a simple instinctual mind now; his senses are at their sharpest at last. He can’t be alone. Somehow he just knows it. He scans the room properly for anything strange and time after time they go back to the barrel in the corner of the room. Bending his ear slightly he picks up a slight sound almost like a whisper he recognizes the motion of the sound instantly.

The were-wolf is determined now that something lurks behind the barrel. He approaches slowly; paw by paw, claw by claw and as he approaches his teeth emerge bit by bit glimmering sharply in the still silver light...

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This took me a while...But I have finally finished...YAY!! I would really appreciate some feedback it would be seriously great. I'm not too sure about the ending but it was just going that way...I hope you like. Also please excuse the bad grammar etc..I still need to work on that...Anyway its finished that is the main thing .

warning: violent references,perhaps some violent rough graphic imagry hopefully not too bad.


Chapter 19

“We came together underneath the stars above. What started out as liking soon developed into love. I sense a certain something that, in my heart, felt so true that I knew I waited all my life to fall in love with you.” -Anon

Like a drum beat now my heart thumps out its constant cry. I know though deep down that this isn’t just a cry for help or simply a whimper of despair. I know despite everything this is the end...

It is only a matter of time before the beast that was once Remus will knock this shoddy barrel away. The barrel will be destroyed just as my life will surely be. It is only now I realise the truth behind the often said expression that the last moments before your own destruction are often the longest moments of your life. The seconds slow down to a dream-like minute and your breath is sucked in and out at very large intervals. The end creeps ever so slowly; and I cannot bear it any longer. The beast on the other side no doubt can sense me here. Something inside me wishes he would get here sooner.

I hope now that seeing as this will ultimately be my undoing that the final blow will be quick and unfeeling. I just want to feel the cold clasp hands of death himself and not suffer the pain beforehand that will ensure me a slow and traumatic death. If I must be killed by Remus the only man I ever loved...Then please, please let it be quick...


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Chapter 20

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.” Judy Garland

The beast’s breathing increases as he reaches his goal; he can finally smell his prey at last and he begins to dribble. His mouth is literally watering as it dawns on him more as he nears the barrel that he is extremely hungry. Nothing could possibly stand in his way now...In this room where there is no escape it will be quite impossible for anything to escape him.

As the rage bubbles more and more in the pit of his stomach. The beast almost feels disappointed if a were-wolf could feel such emotions at all it would be that of disappointment. Where was the thrill just before the kill; where is his prey. It was usually at this moment the prey would make a run for it...make it that bit interesting...But nothing. Remus almost slows for a fraction right before the barrel. There is no sorrow as he cannot feel such things but it is something...Something alarming. It is shock. The were-wolf has never witnessed such a thing; complete acceptance in the face of an enemy.

The moment does not last long. His anger finally bubbles over and he slams the barrel hard. It shatters instantly against the cold stone wall. There she lies; there at last is the strange thing he smelt earlier. Up close the being looks strangely still. Remus is about to raise a deadly claw to the one who sits before him her eyes are closed. Then something happens that completely takes Remus by surprise in his current state. The being opens her eyes and seeing him at last she nods as though willing the beast to finish his deadly business.

Tonks’ eyes well with tears; she cannot bear her Remus in his current state but she must remain strong in the face of such a beast. She does not want to meet her maker with fear. Too long has she walked away from things that felt too uncertain or she let fear build up inside her so much that she never faced her fears letting them win every time. Not this time. She will keep her eyes open and look at the changed man before her. The man that no longer feels but who is now a monster. Tonks knows that she looks inside the eyes of a were-wolf and her beloved Remus’ eyes are no longer there. She cannot feel the intense love she felt only mere moments before.

She stands slowly she does not want to appear like a coward in front of this mighty being but something more. She will not have her last moments on the earth as the cowardly girl she has been countless times before. It was her after who had not stopped Sirius from going to the ministry of magic. No-one knows it but herself but she had encouraged him when she knew Dumbledore and Remus would have scorned him for going. She had never owned that part up to Remus and so her fear of herself has made poor Remus believe he was all to blame for Sirius’ demise. Not anymore though would she sink so low. Now she would be meeting a fear head on. The only thing she both fears and loves would be her undoing.

And so softly she whispers her final wish...

“Go on Remus...Please...If you are in there some where...Please make it quick”


The beast is lost for a moment; trapped in those eyes. They are full of such conviction that the weakling knows and is ready to accept her fate. It confuses the beast terribly. This is not right; not natural. Somehow though his rage is contained by some strange thing; naturally he cannot comprehend. The rage is still there though; waiting...waiting for what. The beast is madly confused; what has this feline done to him. Despite all the signs he must attack he is somehow tamed for a fraction of a second.

Then the female speaks, he listens intently like he understands. He can see her eyes welling up and he becomes transfixed. It is like she wants him to be quick. What is this and how has she ensnared him. His rage is about to burst and yet he cannot move. Then the female begins to close her eyes again. He feels now is the time as he can no longer see within the female’s eyes. His rage is reaching breaking point anyway he will make it quick somehow he knows he has to be quick he just doesn’t understand... quite... why...

Remus raises his paw and extends his claws out from their resting places; he is armed at last. He feels nothing but rage against such a weak being before him. He charges and strikes a devastating blow to the female. She falls forward and lands abruptly on the crimson pool that slowly forms from the gaping slash across her body. She takes one last breath and coughs her last heartfelt gasp of life. Normally the beast would immediately take to feasting on the hapless body but Remus cannot. He is struck uncontrollably by something deep within his soul deeper then the very veins that pulsate from the beast’s heart. This is love....

He begins to shake uncontrollably he has killed someone he loved. It is beyond his recognition though. He doesn’t understand but his soul does. His soul quakes for recognition but the beast cannot and will not understand it is quite impossible for it to comprehend such complexities such as love. His Soul does though; his soul remembers. Remembers how she used to laugh and make his smile crease on his human face. His soul remembers that last moment before all this pain when they finally were together two souls together. His soul remembers how happiness once was when this woman was alive and they shared their first embrace...But the beast cannot.

Remus’s soul does not give up it begins to burn. It actually burns within Remus. The beast can’t stand it. It is as though his very soul is consuming his very essence inside himself. He must get to it and destroy it; stop it from hurting so much. It builds up... It builds up inside and continues to burn and it is getting worse and worse. Remus has to stop it. He begins to scratch; he scratches deep and deeper still. He has to get at it. His blood ripples from his flesh and yet Remus is consumed by his inner rage to get at the burning sensation. Remus must end it he has to. He tares with his teeth and claws at his own flesh. He scraps it away completely and the gape is gets ever redder and deeper. With each tare and bite he just has to make it stop.

With one final crushing blow he has reached deep within himself but has not been able to stop the burning soul. Remus give one final distilling whine and as the final crimson drop melts away from his body creating two pools now in the corner of the room. The room is cascaded into darkness as the moon disappears...Remus’ soul as a final act transforms him from the vicious unfeeling beast to the caring wizard that was Remus. Who seeing with his sapphire eyes the one he loves dead before him; let’s slip one tear to salute the waste of it all. He falls and joins his lover’s side.

And so ends the two lover’s plight. Not one survived but although the final act on earth was met with pain and aggression at least now at last they are at peace. Now they are together forever; the beast put out for good. They can at last remain together, asleep away from such awakened pain.


“The sword outwears its sheath, and the soul wears out the breast. And the heart must pause to breathe, and love itself have rest.”- Lord Byron






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Phew...yes I know it was depressing and very dark towards the end but I hope you'll understand it just felt right to end it like it was. I was going to have it so it followed more the books but I knew that would take forever.....Anyway for now this is how I wanted it to end but I may have a happier ending in me yet just wanted to know what you thought of this...And would you prefer a different ending?


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